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I am at the point where I literally hate my job in the Dells. I do not want to be here anymore. I've come to a point in my life, where this job literally makes me insane.

Insane to the point where I want to scream. I've been here long than I should have been, and they don't care. I have no say in anything, whatsoever. I hate hate hate hate it here. Ugh. Did I mention that I hate it?

Okay, yes. And you may be wondering why.

Well out of nowhere, they decided to change my schedule. My schedule that I've had for the past 1 1/2. Oh my.

I'm looking for a new job on Monday.

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11:59pm. I have yet to live another day on this planet.

I want to travel. Fly somewhere foreign. Backpack across new terrain. I just want to do something cool in my life. Go somewhere. Meet new people. See new things. Anything would be amazing I'm sure.

Let's see...I've been to:
Arkansas. Not that great at all. Really boring and A LOT of hicks, but go figure. Oh, I forgot to mention really BIG spiders and dry dry dry humid air...which in turn cause nose bleeds for me. Yay.

Colorado. Beautiful. I would abosolutely not mind living there someday. Have a family, and settle down. It snows one day and melts the next. It's just gorgeous and not to mention, the people are insanely friendly.

California. Ugh. Disgusting and stinky. The movies really don't do it justice in all the wrong ways. I've never felt so violated by walking out the front door and have never smelt air so foul in my life.

Illinois. No thanks. Enough said.

So, wow that pretty much sums up my great list of places I have been. Nothing too spectacular...but I'm willing and wanting to change that! If only travel didn't cost an arm and a leg! I suppose I should start saving up some dinero.

On another note. Today was a good day. I took a litte nap after work, then went to pick up my car and get Dylan's oil changed at my grandparents in the big 'ol city of Cazenovia. Population: nothing. Then Dylan and I worked out at Great Wolf and now I'm currently working. Nothing too exciting, but all in all a good day.

Well that about concludes all my ramblings for tonight.

Until we meet again.

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I'm going to try and make it a goal to write on this site at least 3-4 times a week.
Okay, new goal. =]

I am currently at my 3rd shift job, which is doing night audit at a hotel in a lame tourist town. Wisconsin Dells. Yay! <----loads of sarcasm inserted here.

I mean it could be a lot worse. But anything in life could be a lot worse. I mean, I could be working in a factory somewhere doing the same routine job day in and day out. But instead I work at a Salon in Sauk doing hair and such, and at a hotel in the Dells. All in all, it could be worse. And eventually I would LOVE to quit this hotel job. I mean I have been working here about 6 years (not always doing night audit). And 6 years of ANYTHING, is a long time.

Anyway.

Tomorrow it's been one month since I started dating this pretty amazing boy. =] Yay! <---no sarcasm inserted here. This is a sincere YAY! <3

I'm happy to say that I havent really came across too many obstacles lately. Let's hope it stays that way.

Well, until another time.

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Post number thirty-five and I have absolutely no idea what to write about...

It seems like it's easier to write about something..anything..when things aren't going as well as you would have liked in your life. And it's much more difficult when things are actually going how they should be for once.

And I'm definitely okay with things going the way they should, because it's rarely happened in my life.

I don't think many people read this blog anyway, so if I'm just rambling down a bunch of useless thoughts, I doubt that anyone will care =]

Well I've had short hair for about three weeks now, and I've gotten used to it. A little. I guess. Thanks to the reassurance from friends, family, and Dylan that is. Ha ha.

And with this whole hair fiasco, it makes me realize how much a person can rely on their appearance or assume that that's what makes them the individual they are. While this holds some truth to it, I dont think it's everything. And it's a little weird, I guess, how much emphasis people put on appearance. In all reality that's not how it should be, but *sigh*.

There are a lot of things in this world that shouldn't be how they really are. But what are you going to do about it?

Speaking of which. I just want to rant about something that's been bothering me lately...

I really loathe when someone constantly complains about something bad in their life or how they don't like this or they don't like that. Or that they're fat or they're lonely or blah blah. Well, why don't you do something about it already? I'm not going to give you advice on this and that, when you're not going to take it anyway. So, get over it. And do something to change your life.

Okay. Enough for now I suppose! =]

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At the moment I am at a loss. I dont know about certain happenings anymore. It's so weird the way life works out. So weird. And like I said, I dont know how I feel about some of them. Ugh. I wish that I could be handed all the answers and be told what to do. But I know that life does not work that way, and I know that in the end it will all be worth it. But at the moment...at this very moment I am having a hard time learning to except the inevitable.
I am having a hard time being a human being and learning for experiences. I just do not know. I dont know what to think. I dont know what to do.

And for some people, you will not know what I am talking about in this blog, and that's okay. Because these are my thoughts and you do not have to understand them all.

Things are going amazing with the new boyfriend and my friends so no worries there. Fyi.

I just tend to over analyze and think about things way too much. It's something that I've tried to work on, but have been unsuccessful with. Unfortunately. Ugh.
I'm on edge and tense at the moment. That's my current writing status.

My mind is racing and I'm kind of uneasy I guess you could say.
It's so strange.

Things are so strange. Wow. Wow.Honestly?? I just don't get it.

I'm totaly lost and at awe at some things. I mean honestly. People. Are.

I don't know. I'm finding it hard to concentrate.

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So as you can probably tell from my lack of blogging, that the writers block has yet to lift. So I'm going to try and piece together some kind of blog. Because I feel that it's necessary to keep up with this.

I've been really happy lately. I can blame this on my uber amazing friends and great boyfriend. So:

Kendall, Katie, and Dylan...and everyone else for that matter...thank you. You make getting up in the morning and living another day, worth while. =]

Love Love.

I've been having some pretty crazy dreams lately. Like end of the world kind of dreams and it makes me wonder about the end of the world. I mean I know it's going to happen. And Man, I believe, is going to be the leading cause. I think that we all need to take responsibility and do something about our actions. I feel like something needs to be done ASAP.

Okay, so that was my little rant there. I have those from time to time.

I like the fact that I'm pretty opinionated. I think it's a good quality.

Anyway.

I guess that's all for now. Love one another and don't let the little things get you down.

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Life is strange.