chpt 16

hi.

I have no idea what to do anymore

Bye.

chapter fifteen

What would it be like to give your all.

Your everything to someone?

I want to know what this is like. And I want to get the same in return. I think it would be wonderful.

Now I know that things don't just happen over night. But why not?

Why can't you feel such strong emotions for someone in a short time?

I know that society would say that you're rushing things and moving too fast, and that it probably wouldn't work out. Blah Blah. Yeah I've heard it all.

But I think I could be different. I think that I would want to give someone my entire being. To let them care for me as I would lovingly do for them.

Ugh. I'm such a hopeless romantic.


But I love it!

Chapter fourteen

Don't Mind That I'm Sideways =]

I am happy. Isn't happy such an awesome word to just look at.

Happy

This is my favorite emotion. And I'm full of it right now.

Happy Lacey Mae
Things seem to be going my way. And I love it. =]

Just when I thought things couldn't get worse.
They got better. Even better than I could ever imagine.

Happy

chapter 13

I think that i have been wasting my time.

Wasting it away with some nonsense. Nonsense that just doesn't make any sense to me. But i guess that's the point of nonsense, is it not?

Here, I thought I had something amazing, indescribable, wonderful. But all along, it was just convenient for you.

Is that all I'm ever going to be for a guy?
Convenient?

I was a girl that you decided to string along until you decided you had enough of me. Until you decided that it was time to move along for you.

Well, I guess now it's my time to move on. Time to say goodbye to feelings you never felt, but ones I felt stronger than no other.

You can't say that you meant all the words you say. You can't pretend that meant them. You can't and shouldn't string along a girl whose heart could have been yours. Someone who poured their every last feeling into your heart, but you never gave a shit.

So, now I don't.

Don't call me your soulmate.
Don't call me your anything.
You never truly wanted to.
And now I truly don't want you to.
I truly want to go back in time. Back to the time when I decided that I loved you.

I Loved you. Do you grasp that? Do you understand what love even is? It's supposed to be this wonderful and indescribable feeling that brings you so much joy and happiness.
You've changed the meaning of love for me.

Not only is it something that brings happiness, but now it brings me tears and sorrow. Pain and trechary. And things I don't want to associate with.
Like you.

I'm done with you, like you were done with me..after convenient wasn't so convenient anymore.